LordofPhoenixDawn

I know I've been away a lot. There is a reason. Depression. Fear. Pain. Feeling completely confused. Being alone in my perspective and my truth. I am having hell doing art nor being inspired because of the endless judgement and hate I've experienced. I summarize it below in a post I made......and I am not sorry for offense. It is time we offend. It is time we ACT. It is time we behave as a collective and give a fuck about every single life and not judge. Society. A word. Something that's supposed to be revered, hailed, loved, a refuge from the 'other'. The slums, ghetto, tribal, rural, indigenous, outsider, etc........those are words used for those outside the 'norm'. I'm sick of it. I myself was an outsider, a rebel, an emo, a goth, a pagan, and a believer in independence and self. I rejected the norm and do proudly to this day as an LGBTQA+ and a mental health patient who found themselves despite the system and became who I am meant to be. I have many beeping beep beepity beeping

It's been crazy so far this year. Covid lurking. 5 times having it. Hating it. Roller coasters of life. Stability at the same time. Finally. An urge to express, read, blog, maybe do art again........FINALLY after 3 years of mostly dry spells. Maybe some motivation. I'm gonna be 40 by end of year *cry, sniff, ....cheer*(only if to have the honor of being seen to have a little wisdom....) But I seriously dislike people who lump us early 1980s kids into millennials because I SOOOOOO am not a millennial.......and as a cusp baby I watched the transitions. Saw the change. Saw the shift from self sufficiency to mandated phone accessory.......From outdoors fun to computer/console babysitting.....and from home alone to playdates.....It's a reality...There IS a difference. There is Gen X. 1968-1983(some say 1965 to 1980......) without all the tech crap or much of it beyond VCR, CD player, walkman, Nintendo, and CRT tvs. I'm 1982, was home alone a lot after school 70% of time, no computer til 17

May the voice be one May the shit be done May we all be red May racism be dead May truth be for real May we learn to deal May honesty thrive May they never dive May we all be true May we not be blue May we live in hope May we gain new scope May life become clear May wellness be near May war be the past May this shit not last May all not be lack May race not come back May fear not be one May race be so done Written after witnessing firsthand some serious firsthand bullshit(tonight and in my childhood).......NO ONE should feel unsafe in this supposed FIRST world country. I felt safer traveling in CHINA....... WHY is race or religion or even idk gender such a big ass deal? Why can't we all just realize with the blood in our veins we ARE ALL THE SAME. HUMAN.....IE HEAVEN UNITED MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HU MAN...... This last year has been ABSOLUTE HELL for us EXTROVERTS so anyone who wants to tell anyone to bugger off can also do the same and .....sign into a new game cause